thursday's thoughts.
Thursday, November 6, 2008 at 1:04 PM
I do not in any shape or form have a plan for this blog post. I'm sitting in one of the many study areas of TWU, with a cup of hot water (life of a student, I swear 50 cent teabags everyday, or twice a day, add up!) looking outside at the torrential rains. Seriously. Rain, rain, rain. I really love it. It just gets me all inspired and creative, but at the same time, restless, because right now I don't have that much time in my life to be inspired and creative.
Here we are, November 6th. I cannot believe that two full months of school has flown by already; two months since I wrote this entry the week before school. Four weeks left of semester one; which means four weeks and one semester left of my university career; as far as my eyes can see that is. I am turning into a really big twitter freak. I seriously adore it. If you want to know in one-sentence updates what is going on in my life, follow me. I find the emails that I receive telling me I have another "follower" really exciting. I do. So please make my Thursday. All of this talk about twitter to say that one of my favourite photographers Millie Holloman twitter a quote the other day: "life is like taking a trip, you can only see what's in front of your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way." Isn't that great? So true. The lovely thing I am learning and believing more everyday is that God can see the whole trip; it's like God has these unbelievable high beams that are gazillion times better than my car's crappy headlights. He has supernatural headlights. And to boot, He made the road I'm traveling on. Just hard to get my mind around sometimes.
Lately I've just been getting a little itchy all over. Not literally; bad image--but figuratively. I just have sooo many things I want to do, and I am such an impatient person in the way that if I want something, I am just going to go and GET it. I'm not going to wait. Why wait when there is this great big world and I serve a great big God who is desiring to bless me and challenge me and see me experience amazing growth as I learn and pursue everything I have dreamed about? This time of waiting in my life is wonderful and good and right for me right now. As an entrepreneur I can just sit and dream sometimes about where I want to take my business, what other kinds of businesses I desire to open, other opportunities that will come my way. But right now, it's a little hard to act on any of those dreams--the capacity to which I am committed to school and work right now is so healthy for me. It's teaching me patience. It's teaching me to trust that I am in school for a reason! I have this desire for learning for a reason. But at the same time...I'm fidgety. A few days ago I was in the middle of another one of my oh-too-regular five hour studying stints and I just felt like screaming, "Where is my camera!? Give it to me! Let me step out the front door into the pouring rain with a friend and an umbrella and let me CLICK! PLEASEE!!" I seriously considered acting on my desire but I stayed inside and went back to economics.
I am just looking forward. Sounds like a sentence fragment, doesn't it? I am just looking forward. Forward to what? The best I can explain it is, forward for the sake of moving forward. Progress, growth, expansion; learning to love more, learning to give more, learning to listen more, learning to be a better daughter, friend, cousin, niece, granddaughter and eventually wife and mother. I was running yesterday and a list I had wrote about two years ago came to mind... "101 Things I Want to Do Before I Die" -- I have to dig it up again and maybe blog a few things I wanted to do. It's neat because I wrote it two years ago, and the last time I looked at it, God has already fulfilled about 15 of the things!! And this was without me actively pursuing them, it has just been His gifts and His blessings. Awesome. Anyway, my list is something I want to pursue more with purpose and also revise a little bit. I mean, seriously, after writing 90 things in one afternoon I got a little hyper. If I remember correctly, one of the 101 things was "Dress up really fancy. Go to a Ferrari dealership and convince the salesperson I have enough money to purchase one. Spend all day with them negotiating all the details and taking it for a test drive. Spend hours meeting with them and phoning your "husband" at home to discuss it. At the last minute, decide you don't want to purchase it." Seriously, Jamie...Seriously! Haha!!
So thank you for reading my rambles. Thanks to my blog readers who actually check this blog regularly for my regular rambles. I love it. I love your comments. I love my twitter followers. I love my facebook friends. I love the emails of encouragement you send: I. Love. It. :)
& I love this photo. Alaska Cruise, 2008.
Here we are, November 6th. I cannot believe that two full months of school has flown by already; two months since I wrote this entry the week before school. Four weeks left of semester one; which means four weeks and one semester left of my university career; as far as my eyes can see that is. I am turning into a really big twitter freak. I seriously adore it. If you want to know in one-sentence updates what is going on in my life, follow me. I find the emails that I receive telling me I have another "follower" really exciting. I do. So please make my Thursday. All of this talk about twitter to say that one of my favourite photographers Millie Holloman twitter a quote the other day: "life is like taking a trip, you can only see what's in front of your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way." Isn't that great? So true. The lovely thing I am learning and believing more everyday is that God can see the whole trip; it's like God has these unbelievable high beams that are gazillion times better than my car's crappy headlights. He has supernatural headlights. And to boot, He made the road I'm traveling on. Just hard to get my mind around sometimes.
Lately I've just been getting a little itchy all over. Not literally; bad image--but figuratively. I just have sooo many things I want to do, and I am such an impatient person in the way that if I want something, I am just going to go and GET it. I'm not going to wait. Why wait when there is this great big world and I serve a great big God who is desiring to bless me and challenge me and see me experience amazing growth as I learn and pursue everything I have dreamed about? This time of waiting in my life is wonderful and good and right for me right now. As an entrepreneur I can just sit and dream sometimes about where I want to take my business, what other kinds of businesses I desire to open, other opportunities that will come my way. But right now, it's a little hard to act on any of those dreams--the capacity to which I am committed to school and work right now is so healthy for me. It's teaching me patience. It's teaching me to trust that I am in school for a reason! I have this desire for learning for a reason. But at the same time...I'm fidgety. A few days ago I was in the middle of another one of my oh-too-regular five hour studying stints and I just felt like screaming, "Where is my camera!? Give it to me! Let me step out the front door into the pouring rain with a friend and an umbrella and let me CLICK! PLEASEE!!" I seriously considered acting on my desire but I stayed inside and went back to economics.
I am just looking forward. Sounds like a sentence fragment, doesn't it? I am just looking forward. Forward to what? The best I can explain it is, forward for the sake of moving forward. Progress, growth, expansion; learning to love more, learning to give more, learning to listen more, learning to be a better daughter, friend, cousin, niece, granddaughter and eventually wife and mother. I was running yesterday and a list I had wrote about two years ago came to mind... "101 Things I Want to Do Before I Die" -- I have to dig it up again and maybe blog a few things I wanted to do. It's neat because I wrote it two years ago, and the last time I looked at it, God has already fulfilled about 15 of the things!! And this was without me actively pursuing them, it has just been His gifts and His blessings. Awesome. Anyway, my list is something I want to pursue more with purpose and also revise a little bit. I mean, seriously, after writing 90 things in one afternoon I got a little hyper. If I remember correctly, one of the 101 things was "Dress up really fancy. Go to a Ferrari dealership and convince the salesperson I have enough money to purchase one. Spend all day with them negotiating all the details and taking it for a test drive. Spend hours meeting with them and phoning your "husband" at home to discuss it. At the last minute, decide you don't want to purchase it." Seriously, Jamie...Seriously! Haha!!
So thank you for reading my rambles. Thanks to my blog readers who actually check this blog regularly for my regular rambles. I love it. I love your comments. I love my twitter followers. I love my facebook friends. I love the emails of encouragement you send: I. Love. It. :)
& I love this photo. Alaska Cruise, 2008.
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15 Comments:
Jamie your so great...and I *love* your posts! Enjoy your rain!!!
Hey Jamie! I love your blog rambles :) You're on my google reader so I follow your blog regularly. I know you're really busy and its hard finding time to respond to comments and emails, but I'll still comment on as many entries of yours as possible, because I think you're a truly remarkable young woman. :) You juggle so much and still find the time to be creative and successful and hard-working. I know you know this but its obvious God has much to do with it. :) I can tell He's a big part of why you're on such an amazing path with your goals and your life and just want to let you know its incredibly inspiring. I wish I had the knowledge and depth of understanding of even half the things you do when I was your age six 8 years ago. Its weird how most people look up to others who are older and wiser as mentors and advice-givers, but even though you're a bit younger than me, I feel like you could teach me so much. And not just photography wise :) If you ever make your way stateside around Kentucky, you have to let me know. :) Sorry for the huge blog comment. I'm in one of those moods too...oddly enough. I just posted a huge blog post myself just because I had so much in my head I wanted to say. Totally random and off the wall, but nice to have someplace to put it. :) Have a great day!
Jamie this post made me laugh. I was just sitting with my draft page open writing pretty much the same thing. Although I was saying that my hands were shaking and my mind racing with ideas and dreams filled with anticipation.
Although, I think in many words, you said it much better then I ever could. Cause we both know, you're grammar is much better than mine. :D
Best always!
mmm. i need one of those lists!!!!!
"I have created a Monster!!!" LOL All good Parents should say, "follow your dreams" - "You can be anything you want to be" yadda, yadda. As you know, we have always said, "follow the Lord", "He will make you into what He wants you to be!" It is fun watching you "burst at the seams" expanding your love of life, the things of God and your business plans. You're are the best daughter any parent could ever dream of and I do not take that for granted for a minute. All glory to the Lord who created you just the way you are and continues to guide you. A verse that I have been leaning on during my busy season here in my home office is Proverbs 21:5 - "Good planning and hard work lead to prosperity, but hasty shortcuts lead to poverty." That is what keeps me going. Proverbs is full of wisdom and I want to leave a few more verses with you to stand on today:
Proverbs 22:1 (NLT) Choose a good reputation over great riches, for being held in high esteem is better than having silver or gold.
Proverbs 22:2 (NLT) The rich and the poor have this in common: The LORD made them both.
Proverbs 22:4 (NLT) True humility and fear of the LORD lead to riches, honor, and long life.
There you go ... some ramblings from Mom! Love you tons!
Jamie. You inspire me! Even though I am so much older than you, I admire you in so many ways. God is going to continue to bless you on a daily basis because you put Him first. Thank you for sharing your heart with the world! And I can't wait to see what develops after you finish your year at college.
Great post... sometimes it's okay to ramble =)
I always love your work and your inspirational thoughts. Rock on and ramble on!! :) *Blessings*
I love it when people ramble on their blogs. :) I totally understand what you said about wanting your camera during study time. I homeschool, so it is a lot easier to get distracted (and give into distraction!). But you just get the urge to pick it up when you're stuck on that one subject! Thanks for rambling to us. And thank you, Jamie's mom, for sharing those wonderful verses. :)
I absolutely LOVE when Photogs start to rambel and get a little more real for us to see! We love the normalities of your life Jamie! Great work!
Hi Jamie,
I have recently become a big, no probably more like HUGE fan of your work, I found you through Shawna's blog.
Anyways, I'm sitting here feeling totally overwhelmed by the rain we've been having and you are just the ray of sunshine that I needed. Your ramblings put a smile on my face and gave me a little giggle, so THANK YOU!
Please feel free to stop by my blog whenever you like.
I love to see how you are continuously blessed by our Creator God! I know I often get frustrated with the 'waiting' time, but I have to keep reminding myself that it is by 'faith' that I am trusting God for the things I am waiting for, and even in my laziness, it seems that much harder. But, when I am faithful to press in and press on, THAT is when the blessings come forth! We are the head and not the tail, above and not beneath, so let's rejoice knowing we are Kingdom Citizens with access to everything. Our job is to trust God enough to give it to us :) Be blessed, my friend. You are an inspiration!
Wow. I was going to comment about something but now all I want to say is a BIG thank you to your amazing mom! Those verses just spoke to my heart in ways you can't imagine. It was exactly what I needed to hear and I know God just brought me here today b/c I am not a normal commenter! What a blessing your blog is to me right now!
"But right now, it's a little hard to act on any of those dreams--the capacity to which I am committed to school and work right now is so healthy for me."
Oh my gosh do I know what you mean. Sometimes it's painful! I feel like I used to be a lot more willing to sit and dream and follow dreams. I feel beaten down (emotionally/spiritually) so often lately...this post was a good reminder of how I used to be I feel like. Hopefully I can start moving back to that, and away from the shell of a being I've become. Hmm. Probably too deep for a blog comment. But I'm going to leave it anyway haha.
I so know how you feel! I'm hopefully graduating in May (yay!), and each step has been a step of faith. I don't know what the future holds, and this journey has been so frustrating at times. Yet God is good and has shown me the way little by little. Hold on, girl, the ride is worthwhile! His dreams will become yours, and you'll wonder at the end how you ever could have dreamed differently!
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